Let’s start the month off with a drink.
Sit down, breath in calm and soothe out the anxious stresses that come with this time of year.
Recently I have had appointment after appointment with healthcare professionals to care for my health – an ongoing reality after my hospital stay. Something I like to imagine never happened.
A week of my life I vocally tell my mind not to think about.
Yet, in the three months since I’ve been reminded how much life is not only connected, but how unbelievably miraculous it is that I’m still breathing at all.
I’ve probably watched 127 Hours twenty times in no exaggeration. Somehow it has helped to be close to someone else who faced very real death in much more difficult and lonely circumstances than I.
I’ve remembered laying in A&E saying tearless words that the Dr’s should let me die if I couldn’t be me because of possible complications. I’ve considered how at twenty six I was told that if I ever get pregnant I’ll have to inject myself every day. Suddenly all levels of future and normalcy felt awfully fuzzy and my mind couldn’t see the clarity in that knowledge. So I have pushed it to the back of my mind.
Today’s hospital appointment though made me feel like I’m lucky – for all this time spent in doctors offices and hospital waiting rooms and my now very real medical history I am a lucky person. Lucky beyond surviving. Lucky beyond the fact that I’ve lived three months longer than I would have had I not gone to the hospital at the moment I did. Lucky beyond whatever medication I may need in the future.
I’m lucky. I am very very lucky.
I’ve not had that reminded more than when reading ‘Two Kisses for Maddy’ by Matthew Logelin. One day his daughter was born and the next the love of his life died from the exact health issues that have led me here. I’m cruelly lucky when I consider the fact I managed to get myself to hospital and be in the state I was for twenty four hours without medical help.
Sit down with this drink in one hand and his book in another if you want an honest, rather hilarious human story of loss and love. And how lucky you are today…your still breathing. That is the luckiest thing of them all.
Pear Gin Twist
2 limes, juiced
1/3 cup simple syrup
1/2 cup soda water
Place 2 cups water into a small pot and place on high heat.
Poach the pear on all sides for 1 minute. Remove from heat and retain enough water to make your simple syrup.
Peel the skin from the pear, quartered and cored. Place in a food processor and puree until smooth. Sieve into the cocktail shaker.
Juice the limes and pour the limes into the shaker along with the fruit. Pulse to mix the two together. Add in the simply syrup and gin along with a handful of ice cubes. Shake until well mixed.
Garnish with pear peel and serve immediately.